Reading #1: Part 4

Continued....

Position 9 - KING of CUPS

Hopes and fears, or alternately, a dream, an ideal, a secret desire; what I'm avoiding, or a personal demon.  Perhaps this position shows my expectations, a lesson or explanation, a suggested best course of action or change, or a "missing piece of the puzzle."  The King of Cups is emotionally calm, wise, caring, diplomatic, and patient.  "Gives good advice," one book says.  Well, I certainly hope for good advice, but on another level am also a little afraid of reaching out for help.

He is also the personification of composure and sensitivity, so I might understand more if the card in this spot were a pentacle card, or somehow represented finances.  I'm somewhat terrified of being homeless again, and I still have most of my belongings in storage.  I'd like to think that I'm emotionally balanced, but perhaps I just suppress my feelings.  The keyword "overresponsibility" has meaning, and I suppose I do fear having to take care of too much or too many, as well as making sacrifices of myself for long periods of time.  Maybe this card is just telling me that the best way to proceed is with composure.

Position 10 - THE CHARIOT

"Meet the graduate," says Paul Quinn's book.  Well that sounds promising!  Pursuing or completing a goal, overcoming obstacles, staying on track, commencement.  This position represents a possible or probably outcome, and "may indicate quantifiable events such as...graduations," victory, self-assertion, etc.  I would love for the outcome of my query to be an increase in will and self-confidence.  Given that this card represents victory or success, and position 10 indicates how I might "succeed or fail"--or where things are going/how I will end up feeling--I'd say that's probably a good sign.  It could also be a quality I will come to realize.  You can never underestimate the importance of some nice, solid self-esteem.

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Closing Thoughts:

It appears that the cards are revealing a path forward marked with diligence, hard-work, loan applications, fortuitousness, and ultimately, success.  I will have to maintain mindfulness of my proclivity for time-wasting and school-avoidance when and if I fall behind.  I'm definitely a world-class procrastinator, and that's something I really need to get a handle on.  The presence of so many reversed cards also makes me more aware that some of my scholastic energies might be blocked or interrupted.  Having said that, this spread, at least, seems to think I can do it, and that's certainly encouragement I'll gladly take.

Reading #1: Part 3

Analysis and impressions continued....

Position 7 - FOUR of WANDS

This place is about me; namely, I as I see myself, as I am, as I present myself, or as I could be.  The Four of Wands represents freedom, excitement, or celebration: "Well done!"  Am I happy, triumphant, liberated, or sociable?  Not especially, but this card can also signify reaching a milestone or graduating, definitely an assumption I have about myself in relation to the issue of pursuing an education.  Is it possible I'm limiting myself by expecting to graduate? Do I even expect to?  Or is the celebratory rejoicing shown here more like what I want or am capable of?

I certainly don't think it's telling me that I'm an overly happy person, but the "taking charge" Magician in Position 1 could certainly support the Four of Wands representing me using my talents or abilities to achieve a degree in graphic design, a feat I am certain I would celebrate!



Position 8 - PAGE of PENTACLES [Reversed]

The environment, or outside influences.  Or how others see me.  The card itself has some resonance for a number of factors.  The whole reason I decided to change majors from Linguistics to Graphic Design has to do with the practicality of learning a (potentially) lucrative trade, not just getting a B.A. in something I like just to have a degree.  Especially, as I see it, as broadly applicable and yet specifically not-very-useful as linguistics.  The Page signifies studiousness, and even more specifically, the study of a "practical, material, or aesthetic" "bankable skill...or a beautiful craft."  To me, graphic design combines all of those things, learning about something because of its tangible applicability.  The Page also represents a "young-at-heart adult whose interactions with [me] involve stability, trust, commitment, safety, and material needs."  Literally all those things apply to G, my partner.

But the card was reversed.  Possible advice in that case, I guess, would include "reconsider the value of this endeavor" and "follow a more productive or lucrative course"!  I thought that's what I was doing!  Is it that an art degree is maybe not as useful as actual hands-on experience in the field? G is definitely a major player in terms of a key role in the situation, but why reversed?  That's somewhat worrisome.  Or perhaps this is a reflection of my general habit of procrastination and lack of studiousness.  Do others see me as a lazy slacker?  Maybe I should take this as a warning to be more diligent in my work habits.

Reading #1: Part 2

Analysis and fist impressions continued....


Position 3 - KING of PENTACLES [Reversed]

Sounds like a good guy to work for!  My first impression when i saw this card reversed at the third position was that in my youth--teenage years, specifically--I was pretty poor. Not destitute, but this position can have the meaning of "source or basis of the situation," "why things are as they are," or even "childhood influence."  Also, the deeper meaning in this context could be something like "My underlying poverty is spurring me to seek a career in which I can attract and create wealth and stability."

My own father was certainly never "unfailingly dependable," nor did he meet "all commitments and promises," which is a cause of some of my insecurity, instability, and financial and education situation today.  That certainly qualifies as an "underlying" reason for things.  Also, I consider his actions, which is the meaning I am getting from this card and its placement, as "beneath me," and my father has indeed been for over a decade a "rejected aspect" of myself.  What's behind my desire to get skills in graphic design is to find a career that is a good fit for me in order to attain some financial success, or at security at the very least.

Position 4 - ACE of SWORDS

Justice, Intelligence, Reason, Truth, Understanding: these things are in my past?  Or are they a "fading concern"?  I certainly don't want to "discard" them or consider them outmoded.  Is it possible that the qualities of the Ace of Swords are "fully realized" or already "taken care of"?  I suppose I'm sharp enough to get a design degree.  I almost have all my general education requirements taken care of.  I'm good at analyzing, being objective, thinking things through, etc.  But "completed"?  I don't even think that's possible. Unless this refers to maybe already having overcome obstacles and faced adversity? Or maybe going for an A.A. in graphic design will require less intellect than a Bachelor's in Linguistics?  That seems plausible.  It seems like a card I can agree with, but I'm confused given the context.  Also, I'm new at this.





Position 5 - FIVE of WANDS [Reversed]

Disagreement, competition, hassles: but upside down!  Cooperation, resolution? Goal or purpose, aspirations; expectations for the future; another possibility.  Maybe what I think will happen. Or what I accept as true: assumptions, convictions, perhaps even delusions.  I intend to achieve cooperation, although I suppose competition (in fact, most assuredly) will be present. Art programs aren't known for being un-competitive, after all. Hmm.





Position 6 - SIX of PENTACLES

Having/not having: money, knowledge,  power. Dispensation or charitable giving.  Submissive, appreciative or successful, supportive, benevolent, etc. Receiving financial assistance or grants.  Something regarding the future, or a coming focus or concern.  "What needs to be taken care of," or the necessity of something/someone.  It feels right to postulate this card has something to do with student loans and grants, and applying for and (hopefully!) receiving them.

Reading #1: “How Might I Pursue an Education in Art and Graphic Design?” (Part 1)

This is copied from my actual bound paper Tarot journal, from my very first full 10-card question reading. For my preliminary work, I am using Joan Bunning’s “Learning the Tarot: A Tarot Book for Beginners” and the previously mentioned “Tarot for Life: Reading the Cards for Everyday Guidance and Growth” by Paul Quinn.

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April 22, 2011

5:20 AM

Question Reading #1

Question: “How Might I Pursue an Education in Art and Graphic Design?”

NB: I forgot to ask the question aloud, and perhaps did not have the question held in my mind especially strongly. I am not a hundred percent confident that I did it “right,” but I feel pretty good given it’s my first real reading.

First Impressions:

• Feeling of weight, heaviness. Importance, gravity? Weight (of situation.)

• Magician at Position One. Surprised to see again so soon, and so prominently. (This card also appeared at Position One in my first consultation ever, a general reading.)

•  King of Pentacles (reversed) at Position Three. Something to do with poverty or little wealth? “Used to be poor,” maybe?

• Three Major Arcana.

• King of Cups (Hearts) at Position Nine.

• Chariot is at Position Ten; no idea what that card means.

• Heaviness dissipates somewhat.

Spread – Celtic Cross

1 - The Magician 

2 - The Hanged Man [R]

     3 - King of Pentacles [R]

     4 - Ace of Swords

     5 - 5 of Wands [R]

     6 - 6 of Pentacles

     7 - 4 of Wands

     8 - Page of Pentacles [R]

     9 - King of Cups

     10 - The Chariot

Analysis:

Position 1 – THE MAGICIAN

In reading about The Magician again, some key words that jumped out at me were “action,” “realizing your potential,” “carrying out plans,” “using your talents,” “being creative,” and “focusing on a goal.” This position reflects my inner or internal experience of the situation. In addition, the card description says stuff like “the primal forces of creativity” can be harnessed by me, and that it is a “signal to act and act now.” Action seems to be a big theme with this guy. 

There is a caveat, though, which is that I should understand what I want and be committed to achieving it. It seems highly fitting that my inner state or the central issue here would be represented by this card, as it is a fairly major action I intend to undertake; namely, changing majors at this potentially late stage of the game from Linguistics to Graphic Design. I’m not entirely sure if this is showing my surrounding environment /external factors, or if this more about me personally and what’s going on inside me, but I suspect the latter. 

I also note that The Chariot is listed as a reinforcing card, which appears in pos. 10 in this reading. However, The Hanged Man is listed as a possible opposing card, which brings us to….

Position 2 – THE HANGED MAN [Reversed]

          Um. At first I really related to the key concepts described in the books of “changing your mind,” and “overturning old priorities.” Similarly, I recently let go of my goal of going back to Berkeley and finishing my Linguistics B.A., “ending the struggle” so to speak. The description complicates things, though. I am supposed to be reminded that the optimal approach to a problem is not necessarily the most obvious. Also, in seeming total contradiction to The Magician, The Hanged Man tells us that when we most feel like acting is precisely when we should wait. Hm.

Interestingly, though, although the book suggests that I ignore reversed meanings early on, I never intended to disregard those aspects, and this one indeed turned up reversed. Does this mean it’s “blocked” or “restricted,” or maybe that it’s “losing force and power” and energy? The fact that it is crossing The Magician, but reversed, is confusing me. The Hanged Man certainly qualifies as a contrary “source of resistance” to The Magician. Although, come to think of it, it might actually be a reinforcing or supporting factor here in position 2, and a reversed Hanged Man can have the opposite meaning of an upright one. That is, “the waiting is over; it’s time to act.” In which case, this spread is so far two for two on suggesting I take action.

I’m also seeing a potential theme in that the source of The Magician’s creativity is a higher power or energy, the same wellspring that enables The Hanged Man’s enlightenment from his decidedly different vantage point.

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I will keep posting until I have finished the analysis of this reading. It's already, you know, analyzed I just don't want to copy everything over from my journal at once.

Tarot Journaling

So I’ve been away for a while. I didn’t actually go anywhere specifically, but I’ve been busy with other things for a few months. I’ve written in enough blogs and journals to know I have a pattern of starting these kinds of things in spurts and then stopping for fairly long periods of time. So I’ll save the excuses and apologizing for something else. No one reads this thing anyhow.

Now to the point: I’m going to be using this space for Tarot journaling. I will be writing my questions, recording my impressions of the cards as they appear, analyzing potential meanings, and doing summations here. I still of course have a traditional journal in book form from which I will be transcribing much of what goes on this blog, but I intend to copy over just about everything, save for personally identifying details and names. This endeavor should begin in the next few days, time permitting.

I will mostly be using the Celtic Cross spread and reading for myself (for a long time, if not always). Sometimes I will do smaller readings with just one or two cards, say, as a daily exercise. Also, for the time being or until I get another one, I will be using the fairly standard Universal Waite deck. If you accidentally stumbled across this site through some freak of the internet, or if I sent you the link, I hope you find this blog interesting, informative, or at least enjoyable. So put on your reading glasses, pull up a chair, and… what’s that? You don’t wear glasses? And you’re already sitting down? Okay, then.

Tarot for Life and the Upside Down Fool

I've been coming to the Tarot in a number of ways, and have been pleasantly surprised at how many people who are in my life are familiar with or have used the cards with an open mind.  Friends, friends of friends, friends of relatives, neon signs in windows, my interest in cross-cultural symbols, metaphors, and archetypes: these things and more have gently allowed me to come to the point in my life where I am now actively pursuing an education in Tarot.  Just look at the previous post on this very same blog.

Yesterday, I purchased a book called "Tarot for Life," by a man named Paul Quinn, whose website can be found at http://www.thespiritedlife.com.  On page 4 of the introduction, the author suggests that the reader perform a simple Tarot reading, randomly pulling one card from a shuffled deck of just the Major Arcana.  I followed the instructions and asked the provided question, basically trying to figure out what I might expect to learn more about through use of the book (aside from the obvious "reading Tarot cards" angle).

What I neglected to do on the first go, though, was to focus only on the "dignified" or upright aspect of the card, for--as I've learned--if a card is upside down or "reversed," it can have a rather significant impact on its meaning and interpretation.  Appropriately enough, and with a last-second feeling that I was going to do so, I turned over an upside down card: The Fool, or number 0 of the Major Arcana.  A good friend with some knowledge of the relevant details tells me this is fitting.

The Universal Waite Deck's "The Fool" as I pulled it

Being somewhat nonplussed, I decided to conduct the exercise again, but with the caveat that this would be for other aspects I might expect to learn about, and specifically intended that only the upright position would be considered.  The second pull produced Major Arcana card 1, The Magician.  I have been told this makes sense, too, but beyond an initial impression I am unclear on possible significances this card may have.

The Second Card I Pulled

Taken together, I have yet to assign any major meanings to the sequence, the numbers, the cards, or their names.  As explained above, I have only yesterday purchased a guide to the Tarot and only received my deck early Sunday morning.  

I look forward to meditating on the meaning these two cards may have in store for me in the days and weeks to come.

Three of Spades

The Three of Spades in a
French Deck of Playing Cards

In the course of doing some reading online, I found it important to learn the similarities and connections between a standard deck of playing cards and some of the aspects of a deck of Tarot cards.  Specifically, which suits correspond to which.

The deck we are mostly all familiar with consists of 52 cards total, 13 from each "suit": Spades ♠, Hearts ♥, Clubs ♣, Diamonds ♦.  The typical Tarot deck also consists of four suits, but with 14 cards in each suit.  The Tarot suits are as follows: Swords, Cups, Wands (or Staves), and Pentacles (or Discs, Rings, or Coins).


As it turns out, while there are indeed more differences than similarities between Tarot and standard playing cards, the suits in both decks have corollaries with each other. Spades correspond to Swords, Hearts to Cups, Wands to Clubs, and Pentacles to Diamonds.  [A Pentacle--often represented by a gold coin or disc with a five-pointed star (or pentagram) on it--is a word of disputed origin, but is generally used in the sense of "amulet" or something with a symbol on it used for magical practices.  Mathematically, a pentacle is simply a five-pointed star made up of ten equal lines without the interior lines present in a pentagram.  A white pentacle can be seen 50 times on the American flag.  But I didn't start this entry to talk about pentacles and stars, so I'll leave further discussion for a future entry.]


About 7 years ago, someone very dear to me was given a large novelty playing card, the Three of Spades, by a young child who said at the time, "This is your luck."  This particular person has since then held onto the card in a very special place, until yesterday, when I discovered that the 3 of Spades is the same as the 3 of Swords in Tarot.

The Three of Swords in Tarot

From Wikipedia

Three of Swords: The Wound. This card represents the aspect of the mind which is overly critical, especially of itself. The perverse impulse to dissect a problem beyond the point of usefulness. The three swords are often depicted piercing a bleeding heart. The swords symbolise the intellect, and the heart, the emotions which always suffer under this treatment.... This card depicts a pure piercing sorrow of the mind. The sorrow must be felt and experienced for closure and relief to come. Generally speaking, it is a negative card and often refers to loss.

We agreed that the card had perhaps played its part and been useful in this person's life, but was no longer of any productive worth, if in fact it ever was.  The card was given to her at a particularly rough juncture in her life, and the meaning was not fully understood, and indeed was probably misinterpreted.  We now know its significance, if not the full effect it may or may not have had, and so she decided to dispose of the card.

I'm left wondering what a suitable and more positive replacement would be.  Perhaps the King of Hearts? Not for the "Suicide King" epithet, but more for the 1966 film and the 1992 Roy Orbison album.

Down The Rabbit Hole

Eat Me

大白兔奶糖

White Rabbit